This is actually a rant, but I don't want to be emotional here. After all, this should be an intellectual analysis of the values difference between me compared to others and its effects.

First, let me point out that it may delve into sensitive issues that you are not prepared to deal with. So, if you can't deal with them, please read at your own risk:

1. I believe that everyone has their good in them, even when they show only evil to us; most believe that there are complete monsters out there.
2. I believe that I need strangers in my life; most believe strangers are unnecessary or even a danger.
3. I believe that one should reach out to other cultures; most simply stick to their own.
4. I believe that one should take hard jobs if they can handle it; my family prefers me to take easy jobs.
5. I believe that knowledge learned and career choice should be separate matters as knowledge can be applied in ways we least expected; most believe that they should be ideally linked.
6. I believe that no one can be fully trusted, even myself; my family tries to indoctrinate me that my family members are right while everyone else are wrong.
7. I believe that perspectives will alter one's minds and should be taken into account when considering one's opinions; most would insist on their own perspectives.
8. I believe that one should work to serve my employers and improve myself no matter what; most would do it solely for money, incentives, etc.
9. I believe that a sincere worker would rather be served with more tasks as reward for working well; most would see it as foolish and take money, gift and promotion instead.
10. I believe that a dinner is nothing but a disgrace as eating is a very private matter and should not be made as an official event; most would take it as a reward for working hard and enjoy it.
11. I believe that off days are days to enjoy, most use it to rest.
12. I believe that coworker relationship should be cultivated within working itself; most would rather do it outside work.
13. I believe that good words must be acknowledged despite coming from a bad person's mouth; most would remember bad words from a good person instead.
14. I believe that working hard is a must no matter how other coworkers are doing; my family sees it as foolish.
15. I believe that all tasks assigned within the work day should be done as much as possible within it; my coworkers would postpone it to tomorrow if it is possible.
16. I believe that realism in fiction is unnecessary as reality and realism are two completely different matter; most would be turned off by anything unrealistic.
17. I believe that racial and ideological barriers are personal attitude problems and should be destroyed into dusts; most see them as an inevitability.
18. I believe that video games are extremely deep matter to be dealt with; most see it as merely entertainment.
19. I believe that social circles should be comprised with multiple types of people; most would rather stick with people that they identify.
20. I believe that we should understand what "is flip side of the coin"; most just refuse to do so.
21. I believe that all sides has their points with the difference of what merits takes precedence and priority; most would only believe one point of view.
22. I believe that the Malaysian east coast (especially Kelantan) is a good place to travel; my family feels that the place is nothing but "an old-fashioned state".
23. I believe that store assistant is more than physical job and requires powerful analysis ability; my family sees it as "just like foreign construction workers from developing countries".
24. I believe that work and wage are separate matters and the so called "lost wage" will be given later in various forms; most would feel cheated if they feel that the worked more than what they were paid.
25. I believe that detailed analysis can be applied on almost everything and it will help a lot in life; most don't give a damn about it.
26. I believe that meals are something to be paid myself; most would gladly let others pay or pay others for it occasionally.

As the result,

1. I have to ignore my family's belief that only people close to us are good, which caused some misunderstanding from their part.
2. I get along with strangers so well that my family "advised" me to not doing that.
3. I ended up being called weird by a lot of people, but I ended up getting more friends than others.
4. My family nags me to switch to cashier, which I outright refuse no matter what.
5. My mother chastises me with such thoughts, but a few people do agree with me.
6. My family badmouths me about how I am completely untrusting towards my family, despite I'm just being cautious that my family could be wrong.
7. I have a lot of disagreements with others, but it also encouraged me to read from multiple sources.
8. Some people call me "working too hard".
9. Some people call me a workaholic, which I admit isn't too far from the truth.
10. The upcoming annual company dinner would be something that I will have to attend but I will not be able to enjoy it. I wondered if I would end up causing problems to others.
11. My parents said that I should stay at home and never go out.
12. My relationship with coworkers isn't good, but isn't bad. This also means that there are no room for having better coworker relationship. I was also chastised by them for treating them as strangers after work, which I did quite a few times.
13. Some people said to me, "are you siding with that (swear)" even when they know better that I don't.
14. So far, they just give advices to not working too hard, but I will still work hard within the proper boundaries set by the company.
15. I finish my job late compared to others and in a case, accidentally working overtime despite my shift indicates it should not be happening. I was also being reprimanded for not leaving on time, but that's understandable even from the company's perspectives. After all, work should be done within work hours or the company has to pay extra money for the work that can be done the next day during free hours.
16. I enjoy local films which are notorious for their lack of realism, leaving some people feeling weird about my personal tastes.
17. A lot of people scratching their heads wondering how come I can get along so well with (insert certain groups of people that they hate).
18. A lot of people scratching their heads wondering why I treating games as serious business.
19. I have no close friends at all and I mostly do things alone, which worries my family. After all, being alone means having more freedom at the cost of having no one to help when in trouble.
20. I have serious arguments with others when I tell this to others.
21. When I try to brought points from their detractors, they will dismiss them no matter how right the points are.
22. My family ridiculed me when I say "I want to travel to Kelantan at some point of my life".
23. I have to put up with my family's constant nagging about how my job sucks, despite I enjoy it a lot. If not for their nonsupporting behavior I would not be stressed during work.
24. I am very incensed at my family's comments about "working like a titan but paid with feather,"
25. I managed to score a few friendships this way, by making detailed analysis on biscuits that I eat to the promoters whom I met during work. My parents just simply say "ignore those people", which I found insulting. In addition, this allows me to tackle my current job well as I can make good decisions.
26. I refuse free food that people gives me, even when I actually liked the food. Most people will be disappointed and see it as a sign of not wanting to get closer.

With that, my relationship with others can't be close. This also means that romance is outright impossible as close relationship is required for that. It does has drawbacks, but I decided that if being alone in my life is a bad thing that I have to face, I will face it without regret. After all, I am so atypical that finding people that I identify with has near to nil chance. Life must go on no matter when and I will endure as much as I can.

The conveyor is fixed and I can now write like usual, but then again, there is a big problem:

There is a third card game design that suddenly popped out of nowhere based on the first and the second design. This is sucks because I have little time and I have a lot to do. It's basically deploying parts one by one and battle using all parts until a player loses. I don't think that I can give more details to that since that I just started that a few hours earlier.

However, I managed to ensure that I am actually doing something on my works most of the non-working time so hopefully I can get some major progress before August. After all, my schedule is that by the beginning of 2013, I should be starting writing Chaos Fighters-Route of Sea=Redone and start the playtesting for the three card game design by using trial decks I constructed while posting some of the basic contents in the internet. Yes, all three of them (and more if they pop up) would be used for my work, specifically the NaNoWriMo entries.

Whatever it is, hopefully things don't get worse.

As per title, I started writing Chaos Fighters-Route of Land=Redone. It shall be a complete rewrite and replaced all versions of Chaos Fighters-Route of Land as the canon version. The changes that I will make so far are:

• Removing a tournament arc
• Adding two characters to the main characters team, making it six as to following Chaos Fighters-Route of Earth and Chaos Fighters-Route of Peaks. This will be followed for other installments within this story arc. They will be from the existing characters. Guess. I dare you.
• Clair would be a gunner instead of a sorcerer
• The main characters would visit additional countries, but this is not confirmed as of yet due to length concerns.
• Four main characters would join at the very beginning

Also, this story would be available at Wattpad and Booksie alonside with Xanga. This is to test if my story would have a wider audience this way. Also, this is the concept for this year's Web Series Writing Month, with the title of Chaos Fighters: Chemical Warriors-PERAK,

"Inside a mine which crosses through two countries, silver is the common commodity which brings wealth to them, but one day, the silver inside the mine has transformed into something that they wished never see. To avoid diplomatic issues, two officers were sent to investigate this, but no one knows the true secret behind it...."

Then, the card database for the new card game, Chaos Fighters: Dominator of Battle Arena, is done by 25%, but I will add new cards to the database once I completed it, since that the number of cards actually required to complete the concept of the game is larger than what I initially expected.

Chaos Fighters: Cyber Assault-The Secret Programs II=The Beginner's Journey has to be stopped indefinitely thanks to running out of ideas. If things get worse, I might simply publish it as a short story instead of a short novel. It is never intended to be long, after all. The concept, though, might be transferred in a new work.