Sorry for suddenly stop the update on Phantalleum-Dual Crossage, but I was very sick back then and it is yet to be fully cured by now, but at least I am feeling fine. The pain on the stomach when I coughed sucks, though.

In fact, my life is not exactly fine. My job pays relatively well, but it is incredibly dull and I feel quite hopeless about it, with neutral worker relationships and insecurity towards the job. At the same time, I expect myself to pass the preliminary examination to enter the public service as administrative and diplomatic officer, but I am well aware that the competence test will be very competitive and even if I pass that, going through an interview with 10% of success rate will be another hurdle. I don't know if passing it is a good thing because that job is much harder than what I initially expected.

Plus, I fall into a state of depression again partially because of the above, but at the same time, I want to find something that makes me feel alive again. For now, I get no success, but the last installment of Chaos Fighters might aid in that. Hopefully by that time I can solve that. At the same time, thanks to a few compliments from a reader, I feel slightly more spirited. Hopefully that small push would bring me back to full force again, like what happens back when I started Chaos Fighters.

Life is never easy, but if our spirit is tough, we can cruise through it.

It's quite some time, but I have only 3 chapters left before finishing Phantalleum-Dual Crossage. After that, I will work on the supplementary materials, but unless I completed all of them, I won't tell what they are. By the way, this year's WeSeWriMo entry will be the final installment of Chaos Fighters, which will set 6 years after RAKSA and have the cast of the main series as protagonists, including the ones from cancelled installments. This is the premise:

Gold is always a valuable metal. However, in the past 40 months, the amount of gold sold was increasing and most of the increase can be traced to one person. Suddenly, posters of a man wearing golden mask appeared, announcing a large scale attack on the country. 15 warriors were sent to a golden fortress to stop the attempt. The actual truth is much darker than that. Will the heroes stop the threat?

Hopefully I can rise again from the breakdown of my old hard drive. By the way, that thing's gonna left in my house's safe for at least a year.

I am still working on Phantalleum-Dual Crossage and the progress is not optimistic. At this rate, I will be finish only be mid-January 2013. What's even worse, I find out that my psychological state seemed to be stuck at a kid's stage, which would explain some of the problems with Chaos Fighters where I kept on start a bit on unfinished works and abandoning them.

Also, I have to work from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm from Monday to Saturday for my new job. This means I have even less time to work on it as I need to sleep early. This is not getting into problems of having to bring work home, in which I got an assignment of typing a sponsorship letter. But at least it's not physically oriented anymore, which would be less straining on my body.

Then, I self-diagnosed with asperger's syndrome, though I consider this false until I am properly diagnosed by a psychiatrist/psychologist, which would require a lot of money. Still, this somehow explains what a lot of people called "unique oddities" of my traits, but I don't believe that, at least for now. Then again, compared to people around me, I do indeed hold unusual interests and have loose circles of friends who would wage mental wars when brought together. It can go anyway, but this doesn't bother me for now.

Hopefully I'll get things done so that I can move on with other projects that I'll talk later on.